A Piece of my World

I always want to do this: Share Your World    Something always comes up and I get sidetracked.  Crossing my fingers. If you can work it in, go over to Cee Photography

 

Sparkle 100%

List some of your favorites types of teas.

If you had to describe your day as a traffic sign, what would it be?

What are a couple of things could people do for you on a really bad day that would really help you?

Irregardless of your physical fitness, coordination or agility: If you could be an athlete what would you do?   Remember this is SYW, dreaming is always allowed.

 

Optional Bonus question:  What are you grateful for from last week, and what are you looking forward to in the week coming up?

So weekly there are questions you answer. (links above.) This is a beautiful photography blog and she also has great photos and photography help as well as this challenge and several photo challenges. Check it out.

1. Favorite Teas: I do not like tea. I will drink black tea cold with a LOT of ice. When I have anxiety I will always try tension tamer or such. I do not really like them, but at least I can drink them without tossing down the sink. Most are so bitter and sugar in tea actually causes me nauseous.  I force myself for health reasons but have to eat something with many with each taste. Coffee for me. 

2.  What Road Sign am I: -From the image of street signs on the original blog post: I                 Think “GRAVEL” stood out.  I checked out “gravel” on Wiki. and was amazed at all               The different types and ” personalities” gravel can fit into. I also can be rugged and             swing between feeling small -large and in between, but still am a rock as my center.

3. ON a bad day when I am more “that small pebble of gravel” What “Helps” make my            day better? Bring me books or buy me music from groups I love. Fix me a treat and           or take me somewhere I love or to something I like happening in my area. (Classic car       show? Hint.

4. What Athlete would you be? This is the easiest to answer: Gymnastics or Ice skating.

5.  Optional- thankful and Looking Forward to next week? Thankful my day of lab tests           and Dr’s yesterday is over with!   Next Week getting ready for my youngest son’s                  birthday on Saturday for his birthday fun on Sunday.

There you go, folks.  It’s just Me.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Beautiful Rocky Falls

We took a small weekend trip to a spot in my state I have wanted to visit for awhile and never got to do:

 

 

The water was so glassy clear you could see the small fish below your feet. nice swimming experience. We swam out to the Falls and let the water stream over us. This is about 15 miles approximately from Eminence Missouri. Beautiful small western and ghost type town.

 

Insidious Strikes Again

 

Things were going smooth. I was happy, learning going places with my daughter on day trips and more. I did not see My very dangerous covert Narcissus husband was simmering. I have learned to deal with him. And because I am separated from him I have gained so much of my life back. 2 weeks ago we took an overnight trip-my adult daughter and I. We did not tell him because he will sabotage. My daughter did call him after we got a motel. I did not think or recognize, but tiny subtle insidious maneuvers from this man who caused chronic PTSD in me. So he started hoovering. Calling and messing up my goals for the day. Showing up with any excuse and playing my kids to divide us.  Taking away promises as he has done for years. I am surprised I survived. Yesterday he was so mad I was happy and he was mocking my daughter with insidious cruel “Jokes” which made her uncomfortable. She laughs to cover not liking it. I asked him to leave and he triggered my issues by saying things to punish me. Not straightforward though; It is emotional abuse. Just digs to my daughter like he will not help me with things he promises in his passive aggressive insidious way which had been hidden for maybe 4 months. When he left I was so panicked and traumatized that I could not concentrate on anything. My mind was gone and today my heart is full of the fear-which if you never had it, you cannot imagine how you feel when you think the fear will kill you and not because you fear a heart attack, but actually die from how bad the fear is they have projected. It is never physical. I was scared to listen to music, watch movies today; I am having a hard time even doing this and other computer things today. But I thought I would get it out on here for therapy. I regret letting him destroy me and my kids as long as he did, and I never knew why he acted the way he did until I lost my mind. But we have kids and he is still pitting them against me and wanting to kill me slowly piece by piece after he can only stand being “nice and cooperative for so long” The trip set him off this time even though it is only me that figured it out. Even though I feel like I will die of fear from his despising of me and tearing me up to punish me for making himself and his empty shell of no love and hatred despise me for being too happy and not letting him control me.    Thank you for sticking with me. Learn more about what fear can do: Not often, but it can happen.

Extreme Fear Can Kill You

July 4th

Sorry I missed everyone here and happy wishes for the 4th. Hope it was a blast full of color and memories.