Beautiful Mind – My Life in a Photo

I apologize for being gone so long , I was without internet 4 over six months. My life was like this picture: rather moody looking doleful and gloomy, but still beautiful and light shining on my life.

Summer Dreams

Weekend Wanderings on a blog I follow. Caught me so well today. While walking for health sake in the evening I am noticing the wane of the fireflies as summer winds down. This fits so well with the melancholy I feel on that plane of still shadow. This does not show the image that caught my eye and to read the whole message written click the link. I adore the whole thing. Very talented. You will see why this fits with the loss I feel daily with fireflies being seen less and less.

What the world looks like through my eyes:

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Weekly Word Press Photo Challenge. Depression has laid hold on me much this week.

Fleeting………………Word Press Weekly Photo Challenge

Oh the brevity.

Word Press Weekly Photo Challenge

Drowning in Water,But finding Myself safe on the Beach.

Take a line from a song that you love or connect with. Now forget the song, and turn that line into the title or inspiration for your post.

So the words of this song called “Drown” impressed me as I turned on my music player.  I had gone to the inspire me link under ‘new post”  on here to get me moving on what to post today.

Walking the beach 4 A.M. Listening to the waves as they crash upon the sand. It’s just a black sea, the moonlight, and me It’s sink or swim Drowning within you Somebody rescue me Cause I”m going against the stream……

Read more: CHASEN – DROWN LYRICS

This reminded me of the darkness and horror of my depression life, I have dealt with since I was a teenager. I still struggle with it, but though I do go against the stream many days, I have found myself at the top of the ladder and looking over the great breaking of the water behind me from the dam’s tip.

Sometimes it is hard to admit. Sometimes it is hard to even blog or go on any social sites and show my face. Got out in public. But then there is the view…… Of HOPE

Hard to talk about, and so painful to discuss the black soul of hopelessness, like drowning, not being able to breath until the light breaks through.

I had wanted to post on my mental anguishes,  once and awhile and this song’s words  just fit to lead into that.

At the beach prior to the falling under the water.

Beach not nears as bright.

It Descends

Giving up.

Hope

Breath and colors flood my life.

Italo Calvino said: The more enlightened our houses are, the more their walls ooze ghosts. Describe the ghosts that live in this house: Image credit: “love Don’t live here anymore…” – © 2009 Robb North – made available under Attribution 2.0 Generic

I love this picture. At one time I lived in a house that kind of looked like this. The ghosts just were in my mind though then and now. Been through a lot, just me and God. The world is closing in , but I am not showing it . Broken. Anyway, the beauty is still there like this house. Like riding a roller coaster, you have to get off and want to be on it forever.