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  • blueribbonfair 8:12 pm on July 27, 2017 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: Cee's Weekly Share your World, , , Looking forwards to, my favorite things, my world, road signs, sports and athletic, , Thankful, truth   

    A Piece of my World 

    I always want to do this: Share Your World    Something always comes up and I get sidetracked.  Crossing my fingers. If you can work it in, go over to Cee Photography

     

    List some of your favorites types of teas.

    If you had to describe your day as a traffic sign, what would it be?

    What are a couple of things could people do for you on a really bad day that would really help you?

    Irregardless of your physical fitness, coordination or agility: If you could be an athlete what would you do?   Remember this is SYW, dreaming is always allowed.

     

    Optional Bonus question:  What are you grateful for from last week, and what are you looking forward to in the week coming up?

    So weekly there are questions you answer. (links above.) This is a beautiful photography blog and she also has great photos and photography help as well as this challenge and several photo challenges. Check it out.

    1. Favorite Teas: I do not like tea. I will drink black tea cold with a LOT of ice. When I have anxiety I will always try tension tamer or such. I do not really like them, but at least I can drink them without tossing down the sink. Most are so bitter and sugar in tea actually causes me nauseous.  I force myself for health reasons but have to eat something with many with each taste. Coffee for me. 

    2.  What Road Sign am I: -From the image of street signs on the original blog post: I                 Think “GRAVEL” stood out.  I checked out “gravel” on Wiki. and was amazed at all               The different types and ” personalities” gravel can fit into. I also can be rugged and             swing between feeling small -large and in between, but still am a rock as my center.

    3. ON a bad day when I am more “that small pebble of gravel” What “Helps” make my            day better? Bring me books or buy me music from groups I love. Fix me a treat and           or take me somewhere I love or to something I like happening in my area. (Classic car       show? Hint.

    4. What Athlete would you be? This is the easiest to answer: Gymnastics or Ice skating.

    5.  Optional- thankful and Looking Forward to next week? Thankful my day of lab tests           and Dr’s yesterday is over with!   Next Week getting ready for my youngest son’s                  birthday on Saturday for his birthday fun on Sunday.

    There you go, folks.  It’s just Me.

     

     

     

     

     

     

     

     

     

     

     

     

     

     

     

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  • blueribbonfair 8:16 pm on June 16, 2016 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: , , , , locked, locked in, regrets, spilled milk, truth,   

    Locked in…..Regrets 

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    “Of all the words of mice and men, the saddest are, “It might have been.”-Kurt Vonnegut  via Good Reads

     

    Lately, I am regretting so much of my life.

    ” I never ever thought this could happen to me.”

    That being the awesome and full of potential individual I am that I would reach a certain age and look back on what appears to be a ” wasted life.”

    This is a long story and even with the ” air” running, my trailer is hot and so stifling I doubt if I can tell it all in one sitting.

    But with the way I have been feeling the last couple weeks, I figured the Word Press Daily prompt here :  Word Press Daily Writing Prompt, fit so aptly with all the regrets that are haunting me so I cannot breathe- even though I try to be positive-I thought like journaling, putting them out here on my blog as the notebook page would be a way to vent and gain control of the melancholia which has me in its grasp.

     

    As I said, it is quite a long story. I want to get it going because of the prompt for today. But the heat will have me fleeing to the coolest room in the house soon.

    Anyway, though I would love to do a very long post and cover all of my disappointments right now, I think I am going to make this a series. I really would like to have these posts on a schedule, but my shifting sand life with all the extraneous circumstances make it extremely hard to have any schedule at all. That coupled with my anxiety, depression and extreme  sensitivity which makes me even hide from people, and even as crazy as it seems  also interactions on the internet.

    I really like blogging photography and short posts because I always have so much going on. I am amazed by bloggers I follow and individual blog posts I discover, how some people either type so well, unlike me or have the time to post long written out articles like this one all the time. (* I have been on Word  Press today visiting blogs I follow, following up on my visitors, like and comments as well as finding prior unknown blogs that have encouraged me, awed me with beauty and expanded my horizons making me thankful.

    I actually prepared a couple photos today for photo challenges I follow, which are my favorite blogs to do. They are fun and happy to do. I love photography and have learned a lot, becoming better at it-In spite of just using a cell phone- as well as playing around on photo editing spots. (Cell phone camera fits in with my “regrets”….More on that in another post.( Let’s start from birth with this sad journey.) I warn you, though, the worst of the saga comes much further on.

    It is said, ” Do not cry over spilled milk.” Which is great but what if it is not only a glass or gallon but a trough -full that drowns those in its path? And the years have passed and blurred so fast, you were never able to clean  any of it up and it has soaked in and ruined the ground you are standing on.

    I was told I always have a choice in everything. At the time, I agreed with this counselor. But then, I thought, “Do most of  those victims in the right place at the wrong time choose to be tortured, held against their will and raped chose that to happen in their lives?” Not all of life is in our control.

    I said the latter to draw the conclusion that many things I umbrella under the “regret” theme I had nothing to do with, nothing I could have prevented. The main regret, though, that led to much fallout was even though, I was young and ignorant/ naive of so much in life. One major bad decision………

    So let us start at the beginning. Circumstances beyond my control, no choice in the matter…. I was adopted ( My parents were wonderful and that is not the issue.) I was adopted because my mother was only 17, I do not even know if my biological dad knows I exist. And there are things that effect you in the womb I did not know then and actually back then no one knew much either.  It is being discovered how  pre-birth connections have a major effect on the baby.  To be continued……………….

     

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    • lisadorenfest 9:48 pm on June 18, 2016 Permalink | Reply

      You write beautifully. I am very saddened to hear that you are struggling with regret, depression, and anxiety.

    • Shauna 4:04 am on June 20, 2016 Permalink | Reply

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      I hope writing this down will help a bit with your depression and anxiety! *hugs*

      • blueribbonfair 10:48 pm on June 20, 2016 Permalink | Reply

        I thought I had replied to you, but I do not know where it went. So if I replied elsewhere just note, my mind is gone. Just in case, either way, thank you.

    • Jean Reinhardt 10:22 pm on June 20, 2016 Permalink | Reply

      I also find it difficult to write a long post, so I really appreciate the effort you put into this one. It’s very well written and I love that meme at the end. Hugs xx

    • Miriam 10:52 pm on June 20, 2016 Permalink | Reply

      I tend to write in short spurts too. I hope that writing helps you … and I’m really sorry to hear how you’re feeling. Know that you’re not alone.

    • DebtGirl 6:28 pm on July 12, 2016 Permalink | Reply

      Regrets suck, I have them too, the what ifs! I am sorry they are weighing heavy on you. It will and can only get better! Xoxo

    • blueribbonfair 7:09 pm on July 12, 2016 Permalink | Reply

      Thanks for the encouragement and your comment.

    • calmkate 10:56 pm on July 16, 2016 Permalink | Reply

      Well written and the meme at the end clearly demonstrates that you have a strong SOH! I guess there are very few of us that have not experienced some kind of depravation at the hands of another … we can’t control or change that, it does shape us but doesn’t define us … how we use that ‘lesson’ to grow is up to us?

    • ANM7 6:42 pm on August 22, 2017 Permalink | Reply

      It’s just me of course, but I generally have a practice relative to regret: I rebuke it and send it back to the pit it came from.
      Self-importance is what my psyche seeks with indulging in regret. Yes, I could’ve dis and dat, humph. Yeah right, given the circumstances, time, my mental state, period and etc., I would have just done a different variable of “Waste” is all. Be careful with regret, it wants to freeze you in time. Stop, enjoy the present moment and give thanks for that. It’s just another version of “The grass is greener…” You will be fine.

  • blueribbonfair 11:14 pm on December 28, 2012 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: dirt, dirt under carpet, pretend, pretending, , truth, wit   

    We try to pretend we’re all right but there’s dirt under the carpet.

     
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